Why are my dreams better than reality .....

=_= I think I have a serious case of LOVE SICK-ness. Rofls. So I chose to ignore the nice guys cause I'm scared that I'm just going to be settling.

& the only guy who seems to want me just wants me as a fuck buddy. Which pisses me off like crazy cause he hits me up all the fucking time with "hey baby, I'm so horny. Wanna come over& play with me" <- shit like that & I just wanna like punch him in the face.

Even tho, I ignore him all the time, he still doesn't get it & he still does it. Isn't that called harassment?!

& as for the one guy I sort of want? Well I don't know how I feel anymore cause it's been a long time since he's gotten me to that whole lovey-dovey high & I'm just not feeling it anymore. But still, I'm a good friend & I care about him.

Oh & my dream? I dreamed that we were happy; in the beginning part of a relationship which is always the best part. Buttttt then I woke up & yaknow. We're at the point of no return, so what wth do I do now?

Probably wait for the next one to come along, but damn. It's been fucking long & I'm way over my head with this love sick feeling.

My life is fucking sad.