i like you. i love you. i guess after all the shit we've been through it's hard not to love you. but that's not the point. the thing is, i have this fluttery iffy feeling and for some reason i just can't shake it off. i guess it cause i just don't know exactly what it is that you feel for me. honestly i don't think you even know yourself and that just kind of throws me off balance and so here i am left with this feeling that i can't shake off.

:/ i wish i didn't think soo much about it but i can't help it. i'm a girl and i just want to be sure on where we stand. after all .. you didn't want me in your life just a few days ago and now we're... this. i honestly don't know but i just don't want any mixed signals and i don't want to be thinking we're actually going to go somewhere, when we're not.

but most of all i just dont want to give my whole heart out and end up getting hurt again. i don't want to be left again.. by you. sigh.. i don't know why but it's always on my mind and the more i think about it, the more i want to cry.