i wish just once that he wouldn't be so stubborn and hard on me and just be a mature adult about it.

i don't know. i don't want think anymore.

......

you were supposed to be around, helping out, picking me up when i fell down. watching my back, listening to my stories. understanding things that i wouldn't want to tell other people. loving me when i'm stupid. giving me something to take care of and be good to.