I've been tossing and turning in bed.. for three hours. I can't sleep. My eyes are so sore .. I've been crying for 10 hours straight now..I can't seem to stop..

Everything.. it's all my fault. I should have never of lied. I should have told the truth. I shouldn't have swored.. I really hope my grandma and buddha forgives me.

I'm such a bad person.. so terrible. And so selfish. I just didn't want him to leave.. but that's not an excuse.

I should've been better. How did I become so low.. I don't know what to do. I can't sleep. I can't stop crying.

I replay the scenes in my head.. what happened today. I feel so sick.

I have nothing.. I'm empty and dead inside..
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