The ones that imapct my life.. I thought about them today.
Eric
You were a lot of my firsts. The first boy that I was with for more than a month. The first real relationship, the first love in some ways. We were so young back then and that summer with you was the best summer of my life. When I first met you, I never thought that we would actaully be together. You lived in Staten Island and you were going out with Linh. And yeah, I had a crush on you big time. I met you at Chris' party and I remember seeing and thought you were so cute, and I liked you a lot. I mean you were just so fun to hang out with. Remember that time we went to Coney Island and you were all teasing me cause I couldn't swim. And how we just spent that afternoon at the beach, playing in the water? Yeah that day was amzaing. I never thought that you would break up with your girlfriend for me. But you did, and even though I said I was mad at you for that, but secretly that made me really happy. It wasn't just that though, it was the fact that we clicked so well. I can't even explain what we had, but it was real, wasn't it? I think the first time I realized that I loved you was when we were at Kimmy's house and we were throwing coco puffs at each other and you laughed at how there were some stuck in my hair. I know it's weird, but I remember looking over at you and was just like "wow I love him." And then came the night when you told me that you were moving to Alhambra. You promised that by the time you were eighteen you would go buy an airplane ticket and come back to NY. I went home that night and cried myself to sleep. That was the first time I cried over anyone.. And we both tried the long distance, but it wasn't the same. Those five months and that summer.. all those feelings will never be the same again. And that's okay. We'll always have that summer to look back on. I think of you from time to time, but I know that things happen for a reason. And I don't blame you for moving away and us, our relationship; it's just one of those things that's bittersweet, and I'm okay with it.
Daniel
I met you during that Winter, when I was sixteen. I liked you cause you were so much older and I liked the attention; that an older guy actually likes me. Honestly I don't think you would've liked me back or anything cause you told me yourself you weren't looking for a relationship. Those days I was really crazy over you. Going to so much parties just hoping that you'd be there and catch a glimpse of you. But I don't know what happened, cause all of a sudden you started asking me to chill with you and asking me to go to KTV's with you. And everyone started assuming that I was your "girl" and I guess it just sort of happened. I was happy for awhile, but I seriously hated the gang. I don't know how many times I worried over you after all the fights and shit. I hated all the guys you'd hang out with and all the things they use to say. I can't even.. but I never been with someone who was so much older than me and I liked the.. thrill of it. And I started cutting school just to be with you during the day cause you worked so much during the night and I didn't want to lose you. My life revolved around you and soon I forgot all about school.. I blame you for me dropping out. And cause of you I gained so much damn weight. Yeah, I blame you too. I really regret everything.. For awhile I thought you were my forever after, but then all you do is just hang out with your friends, and barely even go to work. You can't even support yourself and I don't know how many times I tried to talk to you about it. Even though you're so much older than me, you still act like you were so immature. I regret that one year that I was with you. All the shit.. and espically dropping out of high school for you. Everything. I regret everything. Yeah, I can honestly say that I hate you. I really do. And I'm a fucking balloon now cause of you. But seriously, I was such a happy girl before you, then you came into my life and knocked everything down for me. I don't think I'll ever be the same again and I hate you for it.
John
UGH I CAN'T EVEN. NOT NOW.
Eric
You were a lot of my firsts. The first boy that I was with for more than a month. The first real relationship, the first love in some ways. We were so young back then and that summer with you was the best summer of my life. When I first met you, I never thought that we would actaully be together. You lived in Staten Island and you were going out with Linh. And yeah, I had a crush on you big time. I met you at Chris' party and I remember seeing and thought you were so cute, and I liked you a lot. I mean you were just so fun to hang out with. Remember that time we went to Coney Island and you were all teasing me cause I couldn't swim. And how we just spent that afternoon at the beach, playing in the water? Yeah that day was amzaing. I never thought that you would break up with your girlfriend for me. But you did, and even though I said I was mad at you for that, but secretly that made me really happy. It wasn't just that though, it was the fact that we clicked so well. I can't even explain what we had, but it was real, wasn't it? I think the first time I realized that I loved you was when we were at Kimmy's house and we were throwing coco puffs at each other and you laughed at how there were some stuck in my hair. I know it's weird, but I remember looking over at you and was just like "wow I love him." And then came the night when you told me that you were moving to Alhambra. You promised that by the time you were eighteen you would go buy an airplane ticket and come back to NY. I went home that night and cried myself to sleep. That was the first time I cried over anyone.. And we both tried the long distance, but it wasn't the same. Those five months and that summer.. all those feelings will never be the same again. And that's okay. We'll always have that summer to look back on. I think of you from time to time, but I know that things happen for a reason. And I don't blame you for moving away and us, our relationship; it's just one of those things that's bittersweet, and I'm okay with it.
Daniel
I met you during that Winter, when I was sixteen. I liked you cause you were so much older and I liked the attention; that an older guy actually likes me. Honestly I don't think you would've liked me back or anything cause you told me yourself you weren't looking for a relationship. Those days I was really crazy over you. Going to so much parties just hoping that you'd be there and catch a glimpse of you. But I don't know what happened, cause all of a sudden you started asking me to chill with you and asking me to go to KTV's with you. And everyone started assuming that I was your "girl" and I guess it just sort of happened. I was happy for awhile, but I seriously hated the gang. I don't know how many times I worried over you after all the fights and shit. I hated all the guys you'd hang out with and all the things they use to say. I can't even.. but I never been with someone who was so much older than me and I liked the.. thrill of it. And I started cutting school just to be with you during the day cause you worked so much during the night and I didn't want to lose you. My life revolved around you and soon I forgot all about school.. I blame you for me dropping out. And cause of you I gained so much damn weight. Yeah, I blame you too. I really regret everything.. For awhile I thought you were my forever after, but then all you do is just hang out with your friends, and barely even go to work. You can't even support yourself and I don't know how many times I tried to talk to you about it. Even though you're so much older than me, you still act like you were so immature. I regret that one year that I was with you. All the shit.. and espically dropping out of high school for you. Everything. I regret everything. Yeah, I can honestly say that I hate you. I really do. And I'm a fucking balloon now cause of you. But seriously, I was such a happy girl before you, then you came into my life and knocked everything down for me. I don't think I'll ever be the same again and I hate you for it.
John
UGH I CAN'T EVEN. NOT NOW.
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