August 31, 2010

yourconfessions,

*I don't want to say "I love you" to you cause I don't love you and won't mean it and every time I talk to you, you always tell me that you love me, but how can you love me when you don't even know me?

12626.) I watch porn almost weekly. I’m a girl. I feel no shame, but if someone ever found out, I think I would die.

12625.) I always feel like I’m losing you and I really don’t want to, because for the last couple of months you were the only one who made me smile. I don’t wanna lose this feeling.

12617.) i’ve been in love with the same ASS HOLE for a long time, yet he’s never loved me back. when will he see that there’s no need to go from girl to girl? i’m the only one he really needs. even though i say i won’t wait around forever, i’m not fooling anyone, not even myself. i’d give the world to be in his arms.

12615.) I know I’m not the daughter my mom wanted. I’m basically the complete opposite of what she wanted. Too bad I like who I am and I won’t change for her.

12613.) Yesterday I realized that the girls in my family, on both sides, were super skinny at my age. I look at myself and wonder why I’m not super skinny and why my cousin is. I’m going to change this no matter what…

12611.) I’ve never expected to get such crippling verbal abuse. Especially not from my own mother. I wish she’d hit me just once so I can call the police.

12607.) I cannot explain how sexually frustrated I’ve been for the last few weeks. I didn’t even know virgins could be sexually frustrated :|

12604.) You’re not the best looking guy in the world, you don’t have the most amazing personality either. I just don’t know what makes me so attracted to you.

12602.) i throw up and cut because you left me thinking i wasnt good enough.

12599.) sometimes i just stand in the rain. because i love to feel something so beautiful that i can’t control it.

12598.) Even with a massive group of people I feel like I’m the only one standing there alone. I’ve always been the floater of my friends and can’t find a place to simply just know I’m comfortable there.

12584.) We weren’t ever officially together. Like so many other things in my life, we were just somewhere in the middle. Nothing ever began. But that didn’t stop it from ending. Why did you bother. You knew you were leaving. I knew you were leaving. I was okay with that. If that was even the problem. Maybe it was just me.

12569.) I don’t feel beautiful. Ever. No one ever tells me I’m beautiful, or pretty or cute. I know that you’re supposed to be confident in who you are, and they’re different types of beauty, and everyone’s beautiful. But it wouldn’t hurt for someone to say to me just once, “You’re beautiful.”I’ve been called ugly before. It. Hurt. Until I hear those words, that I’m not ugly, that I’m beautiful, pretty, I don’t think I’ll ever believe that I am beautiful. I will forever be stained with ugly thoughts when i see my reflection.

12562.) i dont like him, i just like the attention.

12560.) I wish I could be happy with myself. I wish I could like the way I looked. I wish I could make my family happy. I wish I could be as impressive and smart as all of my friends are. I try so hard to be someone who is likable. But I’m just not.

12555.) I miss the way we talked. I miss the butterflies I got when we got close. I miss the connection I felt we had. I miss thinking that maybe one day we could be together. Most of all I miss my best friend.

12551.) i hate how you make everyone else out to be more important than me. i guess you can’t put people aside for your girlfriend, but you can put your girlfriend aside for other people. bullshit.

12547.) I want to see you happy, But not without me.

12543.) I don’t trust you, you’re a bitch.

12536.) I hate it when you accuse me of seeing someone else when clearly you’re the only one I want to be with. Why can’t you just see that?

12529.) I reblog a lot confessions, pictures and quotes, hoping you’d someday come across my tumblr page, see them, and realize they’re all about you. But you never will, and you’ll never know what we could’ve been.

12527.) None of you will really know me. Know every secret, every crack, every curve, every scare, every cut, every mistake I’ve made. I don’t trust anyone. No matter how much it seems like I do.

12521.) I hate you.

Some made me laugh.