it's getting close to that one year mark and yeah, we're not even together anymore, but i still have that jittery feeling.

i guess it's cause i don't talk to any of my ex-boyfriends and none of them lasted a year. the longest was probably six months and that was it.

i don't know. i'm scared for it to come cause, it doesn't even feel like a year, but also cause we're just always stuck here. i mean one whole year passed by and we're just still like this. no progress. no nothing.

i guess what i'm trying to say is, i don't want to be stuck. i want to go somewhere.. but it's not happening. not even after a year....

and he's waiting for her and i'm waiting for him. maybe it's time i stop waiting because it's been so long.. and give another boy a chance.

but my heart wants more..so much more.. and i don't think he will ever give me that.