over reactions.

I don't even know where to start. Maybe I'm overreacting, maybe I'm not. I don't know.

I love you, I really do. Even though you may say you love me, I know that deep down you don't mean it. I don't want to get hurt, so please lets just stop now before I get in too deep because I know my heart can't handle that.

I hope you can understand me when I say that I'm not the type of girl to come out with my feelings. I can't confront you because I don't know what you might say even though I know it well make things better. I like hiding my feelings behind a false facade and sometimes even pretend nothing is wrong.

But I don't think I can do that now. I can't because it is going to end up hurting me.

Maybe I should just be the better person and let you go. I'm letting my stupid silly heart get the better of me. . .

I truly don't know if you're playing around with my feelings or not. I believed you when you said all that to me last night. However there is still a part of me that can't help but be dubious. . .

And then there is the other girls. I get jealous. That's how I am and even though I might not show it, I get so jealous sometimes. Especially of you and her. I know that you two are very close and after all you've been best friends for more than a year now.

I'm not trying to change that and I'm not saying don't talk to her. What I'm trying to say is do I really want to get into all of this? Do I want to put myself through all of this? Because I know there are bound to be problems. And I know how hard she is trying to win you back.

So will I be another one of your numerous girls?