Dear John,

It's 5:30am and I can't sleep mainly because you're on my mind. I can't stop thinking about everything that happened today. It was my fault and I know that I bought it on myself. I shouldn't have avoided confrontation. Can you tell I'm really bad at that?

I love you and there are no doubts about that. I'm just wondering if your doubting your love for me. Maybe I shouldn't have said that considering how I broke your heart when I decided that we shouldn't be together.

But I hated how you ignored me when I really wanted to talk things out with you. I hated that and even though I did all these things, I don't think I deserved that.

And I hated how it seemed like you really want this. I'm not really sure and I still don't know right now. Do you want us to be over? I know that I don't and I know how I feel.

I shouldn't have bought up "breaking up" to you cause those words shouldn't have been spoken so lightly. I know that now and I wish that I can take them back.

I don't know how you're feeling right now and I guess that drives me crazy. But you need time to think these things over and I don't want to push you away.

But your giving me this little funny feeling that somehow we're not going to end up back together. I don't know.

All I'm asking for right now is for forgiveness; and for you to remember and keep your promise that you made to just a few days ago.