comparison

I shouldn't compare myself to others and I thought I learned long time ago that there will always be someone who is smarter, prettier, funnier, etc, etc, than me.

So why do I still do it? I don't have the answer to that. . Lately I can't stop comparing myself to her. I guess it's because I want to know why you loved her and live up to that image. I want to know how you two managed to last so long and I want that to be us.

Bleh..maybe I worry tootoo much.

I don't know what I'm saying and my thoughts are sort of jumbled together right now.

PS: So it's Christmas .. and Santa didn't grant me my wish. ): Haha.