I love YOU.

You were right when you said that it went in one ear and went out in the other. It still hasn't settled into my brain yet, that you love me and not her. But I'm getting used to the idea and I guess we can go forward from here.

I don't want to think negatively about our relationship because what you said was true. If I start thinking that way it might actually happen. I'm naturally an optimistic person but when it comes to you my thoughts always drift to the negative aspects.

I'm sorry for hurting you and most of all, I'm sorry for ever doubting you. I've just been going on and on about not wanting to get hurt and isn't it ironic that I was the one to hurt you. I'm sorry and I hope you can forgive me because you mean everything to me.

I'm not emotionally ready but I'm getting there; I hope you can understand why I'm feeling this way.

You have no idea how much I love you. Every time I say these words my heart expands and it hurts, but in a good way. I can honestly say that I never felt this way about anyone else and what I'm getting at is that this is real to me.

I love you, you you you you.
JR.

PS: Every thing you said to me last night is still fresh on my mind. Those words meant a lot to me and even though I can't tell you straight up, I want you to know that every little thing meant a lot to me. I love you. I'm in love with you.