Four days without her was lovely. And now she's back & everything..

I can't even begin to.. somethings I wish you let me die in the damn garbage or where ever it was you found me at.

I'm the worst daughter ever? What do you want me to do? I'M NEVER GONNA LIVE UP TO YOUR EXCEPTIONS OKAY?

Is it wrong of me to actually hate my own mother? There are times where I really really hate you, for everything. For all the things you've said to me. And I can't even .. some of the things.. like really? My own mother would say that to me?

And ever since I was little.. I WAS FUCKING FIVE YEARS OLD. FIVE OKAY? But you would go & hit me cause I didn't understand some of my math problems..

I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. I'm almost TWENTY YEARS OLD. Give me my freedom. I WANT TO BE INDEPENDENT.

You have no idea, how badly I want to move out. And I know how badly you want me to. But what can I do. Where can I go?

These days seeing the Aunt & Cousin being so close.. just makes me all sick. CAUSE ME & MY SURE AIN'T LIKE THAT.

Fifi's the only one that stands up for me. Even though he doesn't understand, he still can see and when you come up at me at least he comes biting and you stuff. My dad? He does nothing.. Stands there and closes the door or something.. and even if he tries to say something, she gets even more mad..

I wish I had a real family... or something..