I can't hold myself up anymore. I thought I could but I can't.

What is it that I did so wrong that someone could leave me over and over again. From the beginning I've did everything I can to be a good friend. And yet, it's always my fault. It's always something I did. Aren't friends supposed to stick together to overcome something?

Do you know how many nights I've spent.. just crying and wondering what went wrong. You were probably just fine, doing whatever but here I was so utterly miserable..

And then that night, you were leaving again. Didn't want anything to do with me anymore. Everything just died inside of me.. I can't do this anyone.

Oh God, it hurts too much.

Over and over again. The one person that I trusted with everything. Leaving me here all alone with no one to turn to. Cause who would understand? Who would be here for me? Who would even care? No one.

Not one single person.

What's the point anymore? I can't do this. I'm not strong enough.. and I'm giving up.

I guess this is the end. And the funny thing is, I'm not scared cause I know I won't hurt anymore. No regrets.