I don't wanna be so jealous..I don't wanna imagine you with other girls.. talking to them, making them laugh, teasing them, sharing secrets...telling them things that you don't trust about me, talking about me to them!..

UGH I WILL NOT FUCKING CRY.

But.. I miss you.. having you as my best friend and telling you things.. and vice versa.. I miss the intimacy.. not even phone sex, but.. the closeness you feel.. when your with someone.. and there are things that's only between you two..

I will not cry. I will not cry. I will not cry.