i've made a lot of mistakes. and i've made a lot of poor choices. i have always managed to pick myself up and clean up the messes, but it's hard.

i know that life is full of wonderful things but at this point i feel like it's okay. it's okay that there will be tons of things i won't do or see. and it's okay that i'm never going to do this and that.

i'm just tired. tired of living.. tired of hurting. i just don't have any more strength left. i'm sorry that i'm not strong enough.

i just don't want to live anymore..i'm tired of being in so much pain.. i just want it to all go away. i want to go away. i want to disappear.