Oh dear god, why does it still hurt so much. I'm surrounded by people..my parents, friends, school friends..and yet I feel so lonely..without him. But I don't ever want to talk to him again..I think its cause with him, I could just be..cus usually what people think of me is important..and I hold my guard. I let my guard down and I was just ..myself. And now I don't understand why I'm breaking down and crying cus it shouldn't even hurt this much..
Maybe I'm an emotional sadist......
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