They say that it gets better over time.

Does it really? Because it’s been months now and yet not a thing has changed. And by this point, I don’t know what is wrong with me anymore. I went out today; I laughed, had a good time and even gave my number to a cute boy, so why is that here I am .. with this deep sadness sitting in my chest that refuses to go away.

I shouldn’t be feeling this, I know that. I have two parents that support me, my grades are above average and I have some amazing friends who still sticks by me even through these years. But my life still feel empty.. unfulfilled and non meaningful.

They also say that depression kills.

I’ve felt that pieces of me is gone, no longer am I that person that I used to be. Sure, people change all of the time but I don’t like this person, I’ve changed into. But most importantly, I don’t like how I feel all the time nowadays. I go to sleep everyday and I lay in bed.. feeling nothing but loneliness.

And it’s funny because for the life of me, I have no idea WHY I’m feeling all of these unwanted emotions.