has it been a day already? i don't know anymore.

im just sitting here .. thinking.. and thinking..

does he care at all? did he really love me? how can he stand to see me like this.. and not do anything..

i know it was my fault.. but can he not see how much i'm hurting too.. why isn't he doing anything..

maybe he has already moved on and found someone else to talk to .. i dont know..

i really dont know.. all i can think is .. if the roles was switched.. if he was the one that fucked up..

and i was the one ignoring him... and he was trying to get me back.. i would have forgiven him.. i would not ignore him.. i would at least talk to him..i would try to forgive him .. and work things out..

everything i've been doing.. does he not see how much i love him.. and how much i care.. and how much i really am sorry?

i don't know..how can he just disappear like that.. from my life...is it really that easy to walk away from me .. and not look back?

there is nothing else i can do. i give up.

i'm very tired. i would just like to fall asleep for a very long time.