5am and of course, I would still be up.

"I'll try if I have time."

No, sorry but that's not good enough for me cause if you really want to you would. It's not about having the time or whatever. It's about putting in the effort.

And that's just not good enough for me.

I don't know why I bother anymore. And I'm not going to. Not anymore. If you want to be in my life, then make the effort but you're not getting in that easily.