My heart feels heavy, like there's a tons of brick laying down on me & it all I feel is this complete emptiness...

No regrets. That's how I'm going to live my life.

I look through this blog and it's full of memories of you. Did you know that it's been exactly one year since we've met? Shocking.. cause it really doesn't feel all that long.

There aren't enough words .. how do you describe how you feel when you see someone you truly love, love another? My heart feels like it'll never be whole again...

And I feel like I'm just filled with so much sadness. But this is life isn't it? You get up and you move on.

I should have done that a long time ago and let you go ...... but never in my life have I met someone like you.

I wish you would have paid that much attention to me, said those things to me, but in the end it doesn't matter. It will never be you and me.

It hurts, it really does. But I'm tired too.

I need a fresh start. Starting with this blog.. I don't want to be reminded again.. of this. Of you. But mostly all of my emotions and tears.

I don't hate you or resent you, cause you're human and you can't help what you feel. Just like how I can't help what I feel.

But I'm very tired.

I'm tried of all my efforts and love..for you. But I will learn and get up from this. And one day I'll get myself back as well.

& let this be a reminder to never trust or open my heart up so easily. Not everything is black and white. Stop and look around; everyone is selfish and is only looking out for themselves.

People come and go.. the only ones worth loving are the ones that stayed.

12.02.09 - 11.1910; Bye<3