this is going to be one long winter, but i swear i'm locking away the memories of you & me. i don't know why i keep thinking about when we first met & started talking.

i was in love, but idk about you; you were too but just not with me. it's okay. i remember playing omgpop with you & your stupid forum. talking to you on msn, texting you while walking my dog. you calling me with your number blocked, & the first time i heard your voice.

but the thing i remembered most was falling asleep on the phone with you; i've never been able to be that comfortable with someone & i remember you had that one song playing "if i ain't got you" in the background & all i can think was how safe & sound i felt with you.

i was head over heels, but you were the player, strumming me alone. oh i knew it wasn't real, but i wanted it to be. i made up excuses even though things just didn't seem right.

i always felt that you were just too good to be true and even though i knew you were a player & i was just some girl to you, you made everything felt so real.

but it wasn't & i realized that way too late.

& so .. there will always be guys, but there is only one love & i just haven't found mines yet. but it's okay.

i'm okay with that cause i don't want any games. i want the real thing. & honestly i'm not looking for love.

i'm gonna live my life to the fullest & lock away memories of you & forget about the past. & i'm gonna be okay.