why is everything so fucked up...

i wish you would understand everything from my perspective. i know how fucked up it looks..

but bottom line is.. i love you. just you. and youre the only person in my heart. i never meant to hurt you. i would never hurt you intentionally. and i would do anything to make it up to you and for you to forgive me.

and i never.. ever.. once cheated on you or talked to any guys like that.. i never lead any guys on.. and its hard enough as it is for me to open up to you.. and for me to talk to someone and flirt with them... i have to have real feelings for them.. and.. youre the only person i have real feelings for...

but i know.. you will never see. and i know you probably think im like every other girl out there that lied and hurt you.

i am so sorry. this is hurting me so much more. and i just wish you would understand...