irony

For the first time in four years I didn't go ice skating on New Years Eve because two of my closet friends are not in New York. It made me feel all out of place and I didn't like it, but what is there to do?

So I ended up going to the movies with Evey and her cousin who tagged along. We watched the stupid Chipmunks movie because we couldn't agree on any other movie, but that's okay. I didn't really mind that much.

We've never really been that close and it was even more awkward with her cousin there. I didn't know what to say and they had their own conversations which made me feel kind of left out. I hate these moments where I don't know what to say to the other person, but whatever.

Afterward we went to Sentosa and it got a little better. There were so many stuff I wanted to ask Evey about and there was a lot to catch up on but since her cousin there I didn't really feel like talking. Haha, to be honest it was boring.. I didn't know what to say to them and I got a little pissed thinking why did she even invite me when she had her cousin there.

But it's okay, it wasn't that bad but it defiantly wasn't how I wanted to spend my New Years Eve.

I wasn't really in any mood for any celebration so I ended up going home even though I promised I would show up at Flushing Mall for the party. But I ran into Steven when I was walking home and he convinced me to stay for a little bit and I just felt so .. out of place! I don't even know how to explain it but I guess today just wasn't a good day.

-____________-; I just wish things were different.