I can't do this. I can't do this again. Have you walk out of my life again. But it's happening all over again and I feel like I'm drowning. And only you can help me reach the surface.

But you don't care to want to help me. I feel desperate, hurt and most of lonely. I just wish someone would hold me but who will understand? Who will care enough to be here for me?

I can just.. feel what's gonna happen next. And all I can do is just sit here and watch that happen. I can't and I don't have the strength to do that. I just want to.. go.. before that even happens. But I don't know how.

I don't know anything anymore. All I know is that my heart hurts. My whole entire being hurts. My soul hurts.