I don't know how many nights I've spend lying awake at night waiting for you to come home and call, but then something just clicked in me now and I finally realized something. You were probably on the phone with her and when she went to sleep, you came to call me cause compared to her, I'll always be second best. Maybe not even second; more like third or forth or whatever.

But the thing was, you'll always be the only one; the only one I'm thinking about late at night, the only one I'm daydreaming about and the only one in my thoughts. It's not fair; how can I love you so much and yet you barely give a fuck. I've come to the realization that I don't mean much to you. Well I knew that long time ago, but I think it's finally hit me in the face now.

Oh, I knew what you were like and I knew you didn't really care about me, but I always hoped that maybe underneath it all, I might actually have a place in your heart. But that's not the case here and it never will be.

And another thing that's not fair is that you never gave me a chance. I guess somewhere along the line you got tired of waiting for me to open up and just gave up. I hate thinking like that cause it's like in the beginning you were so interested and then finally you got to know the real me and I'm not all that appealing.

I don't know how you feel about me and I don't know what you think of me. But you know exactly how I feel about you and yet you don't do anything. You leave me hanging here without a clue and I wish you would just give me something to let me know that it's hopeless. Tell me to move on, tell me to let go.

And to be honest, I really need to get away from you and to learn that there are better guys out there.

You tell me that you care about me, but again I tell you actions speak louder than words. Maybe you don't cherish our friendship, but I do and I wish to God that I didn't.