I think I just binged. I don't even know if that's the right word for it..So I wanted to go get food cause I was finally getting my appetite back and I walked into my kitchen to see dinner on the counter. I don't know what came over me, but I just went and started standing there just eating the food.

Egg with tomatoes. I ate like half of the bowl.. Then my mom came in and saw I was eating and started bitching and was saying how there was no more left or whatever. Well gee Mom, if you payed more attention you would have noticed I've been barely eating for more than a week now.

But after she bitched at me, I just got so.. I don't know how to describe the feeling. But I went and threw up. I got so nauseated? Or whatever and threw up everything..I don't know whats wrong me with me lately..

I think my parents know that I took so much damn advil and tried killing myself. LOLwtf was I thinking and when did I become so EMO?! But like it was creepy cause a few days ago I saw my dad like peeking at my from my door? Ugh I don't know. It was weird. Well not like I'm gonna do that again. But ever since.. I just can't seem to eat anything cause it upsets my stomach. But it's okay. Not like I go starving myself or anything.

Oh yeah, I kind of want to get my tongue pierced again. And I kind of don't. I miss my piercings though and all I have now is just my ear lobes.. Lols, I miss playing with my tongue ring. I don't know! But Jen's like begging me to go to that piercing place with her. Ugh how about NO? Besides I'm too lazy to go to Chinatown these days. Fuck that. I like waking up in the afternoon, and doing nothing all day long. Rofls!

& Sunny wants to get a tattoo. And she wants like a friendship tattoo for me, her & Erika. Sigh. First, I have no money. Second, I'm scared. And third, tattoos & piercings were like so two years ago. Lols. But I think it's a cute idea though! Maybe, but I don't know. Maybe something small? But if we do get all, all of us are gonna get the same thing... but in diff. colors? I DO NOT WANT A HEART, OR STAR TATTOO. -_- Fuck that. Everyone has that.

But I kind of want one on my hip or my ribcage. Or behind my ear. Or on my back. NO. I always wanted a crown on my back. A Juicy Couture crown, lols. Oh & also a slithering snake on my wrist. But eh. Or a bow. Bows are cute. LOL. I don't know. All three of us has to get the small tattoo though. Ugh. Maybe NOT!