yawwwwwwwwwns. im so sleepy. .. was on phone with xiangxiang meimei since 9ish ..i am tired. sleep so little..something she said..

i ask her if i really messed up big time..and was it really so horrible of me to lie about it.. and she said..

"it was wrong to lie but i know you just didn't want to cause any more problems since things was going really well for you guys..and he's hurt but if you two still love each other at the end of the day then you will be able to patch things up"

kind of made me snap and it's like wtf..
hellooooo. i'm sorry i lied. i love you. if you love me too then lets stop wasting time, and make things right.

it's so stupid. it's like i said.. if something happens between two people..and if they still love each other at the end of the day then things will be okay...

i don't fking believe that maybe everything happens for a reason. if you love me then fking be with me.

so fking stupid. but i guess you just dont love me anymore. but im tired moping around home being all sad and shit. there's nothing more i can do. and today is so nice out and the sun feels so good shinning on my face.

so im going to go eat thai food ..my first time.. with tingting & meimei .. & go watch the green hornet. lols they are both cutting school for mee. yayyy.