I've been talking to a lot of people lately; I mean that's what you do right? You get lonely, you get bored, so you go and find yourself some company.

All of the talking made me realize something. Everyone, they all have someone to go to at the end of the day. Someone to talk to before they fall asleep, someone to share all their secrets with, someone who makes them feel right at home.

You were that for me. I was never close with anyone else before. I never let anyone else in cause honestly I never wanted to talk about myself. I don't like talking about myself, but when it comes to you I want to tell you everything.

You're my best friend. Maybe it's easy for you to get close to someone and let them in. I mean you have all these other best friends and everything, but best friends doesn't come easily for me.

How do someone deal when they lose their best friend. Someone they've been so close with. Someone I've been so close with, but now you don't even want to talk to me and you want me out of your life.

I lied to you and went behind your back and called up another guy. I feel horrible and there's no other way to explain it. But that phone call meant nothing to me, he means nothing to me. It doesn't matter anymore.

What matters to me right now is I lost my best friend. The person I felt the most comfortable with. The person that I want to come home to at the end of the day. The person I felt safe with. The person that I truly loved. Why can't you see all of that?

No one seems to get it. Not even you. You choose to shut me out of your life. I just don't know... I just feel so all alone and even though I have a whole bunch of people talking to me it's just not there. Not the same. Never going to be the same.. I just feel so empty.. and that it's never gonna be the same again..