i've been sitting here for a long time, just thinking and trying to make sense of all that i'm feeling.

you know how i've been feeling lately? i feel like i have no purpose. so i go to school and afterwards i find a job and make a better life for myself. is that what i'm supposed to do?

is that what life is really all about? i don't know.

i really don't know anymore. my parents are both living their own lives; working and doing whatever they are doing.

and as for me? what is the point of living. everyday i'm surrounded by people but when it comes down to it. i have no one.

and it's funny cause i really don't. sure, i have my parents but i doubt they really see me. no one does. i mean i don't even know where i come from or who i am.

and no matter how hard i think, in the end it would still be better.. for everyone if i just disappeared. my parents can stop working and retire away and live happily for the rest of their lives.

i just don't know how to live anymore and this.. seems to be right thing to do now.